Something Else

Feels like I'm losin it, I don't know what's goin' on/
one day it's takin care of, the next day I can't bear it/
next I'm embarassed, my confidence has vanished/
and I'm having dreams where demons are speakin to me in spanish/
lookin in the mirror, my reflections takin shots at me/
and I know my mediocrity is my hypocrisy/
move robotically... my humanity has left me/
right handed grip buy it feels like I'm swinging lefty/
I know it's complicated how i choose to illustrate it/
but fear has facilitated a form that is debilitated/
I'm feelin' faded, the self loathing is my thirst quencher/
first flincher is rarely ever gonna be purse clencher/
his first venture immediately alerts censors/
to barricade the borders and black ball all his adventures/
confusing delusions must be caused by contusions/
or his logic and reason fusion is no longer included/